Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter!!! It has been awhile since my first post. Unexpected circumstances happened in our household over the past 2 weeks, and then we had a respite during Holy Week which gave us a forced break from TV, Internet, and cellphones. :)

Sabina has been doing well. She had one whole day of zero seizures!! Although only for a day, I am thankful for it. She was her most cheerful, energetic and active self that we have seen in some time. So surely, those seizures zap Sabina's energy big time. Now during a seizure, i count out loud and make it a game for her. Does that sound mean or strange? A game in a middle of a seizure? I figure it might distract her somewhat and if it helps make it less burdensome for her body and mind, then i do it. A mom will do her best to be creative in helping make a situation less horrible right?

I have so many things I want to share, but I will post it one day at a time. In the meantime, let me just say that these past two weeks have been tough. I experienced the betrayal and very hurtful and shocking comments from someone whom I thought loved our family and especially Sabina. And I think, why Lord? Why? After all these, how come more painful trials are added to this journey that is already so difficult as it is? And then the Lord made me remember what happened on Good Friday more than 2000 years ago. All the excruciating pain and suffering that Jesus went through for me, for us and for all mankind. I may not have all the answers to my questions and my own sorrow, but I can take heart in knowing that Jesus LOVES ME!!!!  He died for me!!! And one day, all this will come to pass and the person who hurt our family will be accountable to Him.

But for now, I take deep breaths, cry my heart out, and then hold the hand of my Savior and press on.....


  1. God has someone better for Sabina, Cands. Hang in there. He will reveal His plans for you. :) Mwah!

  2. I know how you feel,Cands. Its amazing how people can just be really insensitive (and thats a pretty mild word if u ask me).It hurts because on top of everything else, the hurt you feel notjust for yourself but for your child na walang kalaban-laban to such comments and judgement pa sa parenting skills. blows my mind . BUT...better for you to find out sooner rather than later so you can protect yourself and your family to people like this.
    You are doing a great job on Sabina and I rejoice with you that the seizures on some days are not happening. We will claim that it will be gone!!!!
    and remember this...God is a God of love but he is also a God of justice. Sabina was given to you because the LORD KNOWS those are the BEST HANDS she will be in. HUGS!