With all the things that have been going on the past several days (Sabina's seizures increasing and are now affecting her daily living), I've been quite frustrated and disappointed with the way things are with her doctors and the seemingly "non-working" anti-seizure medication. And in some ways, I have also been frustrated at what I perceive to be God's "slowness" in answering my prayers for her seizures to disappear or even just dramatically lessen.
However, in God's loving ways, He reminded me through my friend today of a few things:
1) Nothing escapes God. He sees everything, knows everything. Even my frustrations; and I can vent out to God exactly how I feel.
2) All this is temporary. One day, we will be in Heaven with the Lord Jesus, and there will be no more tears.
3) God chose me to be Sabina's mommy because He knew I could be a special needs mom. (didn't I just write something similar to that effect in my mother's day post? But somehow, God had to remind me again today and it encouraged me to have a friend validate that).
Sigh. I thank the Lord for His encouragement and it always amazes me how He uses people to lovingly remind me that even tho I think He is silent, He is not!! He hears my cries and knows my hurts and wants to reassure me that He is upholding me with His righteous right hand. What a wonderful God we have!
Psalm 10:17 "You hear O Lord the desire of the afflicted; you encourage them and you listen to their cry. "
Psalm 57:2 "I cry out to God Most High. to God who fulfills His purpose for me. "